I’ve been struggling with a theme for the last year and a half, very strongly. It can be summarized in two words: “Not alone.” This is me missing places that always felt like, “come as you are. All are welcome here. Our differences make this place more vibrant. Love and respect are all that matters.” Concerts, certain scenes, and some online groups really celebrated that aesthetic.
Now I’m very happy that those places are needed much less for so many people. There are still people who feel torn in this current climate. People who look like everything is cool on the outside, but feel completely without a real place to be themselves. I’ve been searching for that place, but every time I act like it’s already there for someone else, it appears.
Not alone. Continue reading “Music, Continuity, Themes”
This is all navel-gazing.
It all ultimately comes down to asking, “how do I label my music?” Read more: influences, new favorite bands, and contemplating this question
I make music out of my closet. I honestly enjoy hearing what others make out of their bedrooms, closets, and home studios. In the process of perusing Bandcamp, I also find a common red flag: “Experimental.”
The biggest reason I see for people using the Experimental tag at Bandcamp is when they feel uncertain about their music. Every time, I want to beg them: do not feel uncertain. You made art. You are already ahead of everyone who only dreams of making the art. By virtue of your recordings being published, you’re ahead of the game. You conceived, recorded, and published the art.
Do Not Undersell Yourself
Instead, learn why you should be proud of your recordings.
This home office thing is great!
No interruptions from phones. I don’t have my concentration broken by lengthy conversations about who is about to run what errand. Crawling out of bed to make coffee fifteen minutes before the day starts is pretty alright.
The best part is being told by my employers to put all my focus on the things they originally hired me to do. I’m learning new faster than I have in years. I’m getting work done much more quickly than I used to. I’m happier. I’m in that sweet, wonderful place where I get focused on the job at hand and lose hours doing it. This is by far a good thing. Read more.
It’s been ten months, I think?
I love the Internet and all. But I also love living in the real world. I’ve had a really big year with a lot of huge, necessary, hopefully positive changes.
One of those changes is that I just want to be in the world. I want to look the other person in the eye when we speak, when we agree or disagree, when we share camaraderie. Whatever it is.
I’ve spent the last four years effectively pulling my best self out of all my fears and insecurities. So while I love working on web sites and code, I’d prefer to communicate face-to-face or from a stage.
It’s a balance and it’s helped me to be happier than I’ve been in years.
My brain is always idling into weird corners of places. More by accident than by design, I wound up collecting some sources of cheap and sometimes free electronic e-books.
This comes up from time to time with friends. Inexpensive E-Books
People sing in the shower. Hey! I do too! Songs and Embedded YouTube Videos
I looked at this giant post about to hit Facebook and thought it might be better as a blog post. I’m working on a Play By Post site in the style of the site I once loved, and spent a while working on how to view a page that had been stored in the database. There were multiple “hard way”s to write one of the pages.
All of the code here is very simplified from what I’m trying to (except the HTML examples), and the variable names are not the same as in my real code.
The easiest way was to intermingle the programming language and the HTML/web page language at every step of the way. The PHP scripting and HTML code would be so intermingled that none of it could be easily re-used, or even understood after any time has passed. I’m not even going to write that here. It would have been a piece of script to open the database connection and connect to this “row” of data, followed by enough HTML to get to where the next piece of data is needed, followed by PHP script to retrieve that piece of data alone, followed by enough HTML to get to where the next piece of data is needed. Everything would have been horribly tangled up, and a pure nightmare to look at. Where I separate my scripting code and my HTML code by creating objects.
I have always loved watching Matthew Lillard act. Even before I knew anything about the acting side of acting, I latched onto just how honest he was. He wasn’t acting for a screen or for camera, but acting with something a lot of people don’t let us see. His characters react to sadness and horror with an honest manner. His face contorts. He is genuinely ugly. He reacts to happiness with honest silliness that is difficult for most people to admit they feel.
He is emotional instead of pretty. It’s amazing.
That is why I have a Matthew Lillard Paradox. I love watching Lillard act so much that any movie he is in runs the risk of not being good enough for him. He brought depth and charm to a Uwe Boll movie.
I wear a sapphire stud earring in my left ear. There is a matching garnet stud earring in my right. There are a few reasons for this.
I was performing magic in the Hell and Back Cabaret. I had already been wanting to pierce my right ear. My left had been pierced for just over twenty years, and a test with an old zirconium stud let me know it had not grown over. So, I pierced the right ear and wore matching silver starter studs to perform for the cabaret.
Incidentally, I have performed with a cabaret show.
So, why one red and one blue?